Finals, More Finals, and the Beginning of Summer

My Beautiful Family

Well my last week of school was tough in multiple ways.

Finals were rough... Well, actually just one... Chemistry, my major. That's always great, right? The outcome of that test was not pleasant at all, but hey, my teacher curved a huge amount, so I passed...yay! So much stress was lifted after that. Had I failed, I would not be finishing college on time. Thank God for that blessing, I didn't deserve it at all. 

I had made my final decision on which school I am attending next year. I am now a University of Southern Indiana Screaming Eagle... Woo Hoo! That was a huge stress reliever as well. Another decision blessed by God. 

This made moving out super hard. I was not just leaving the people I had grown close to for just the summer, but for the rest of my college career. Needless to say a few tears were shed. It makes me thankful that my home home is definitely close to Uindy... I can definitely visit, and that makes me feel a ton better.

The transition home was different, home is different in so many ways... Empty room, empty spot at the dinner table, watching the bus pass by our house everyday and having no reason to stop, and no one to take out the trash. 

Even though there is a lot of emptiness in our house, I still feel peace from God, which is amazing. I don't know what others in this situation feel when they don't have faith in God. I couldn't imagine feeling hopeless. I don't want to. 

God has already blessed me so much lately... with family and friends and odd jobs to help with my lack of cash flow... it's absolutely crazy. I am so in awe of how amazing He is, and all I want to do is live a life worth for him.

Another crazy thing is how I don't feel worried about hardly anything anymore. I know there are things that I am expected to worry about like funding for college, classes that I need to take being full, and other college junk... but I have decided to put all of those questions into God's hands: I pray about it and I'm given the answer whether it isn't what I wanted. It's so freeing.

My goal for the rest of this summer is to pour out God's love into the middle school kids I lead at youth group, study my bible more, and just to follow my Savior in every way possible. There's a Superchick song that says "Everybody dies but not everyone lives." I wanna be in the group of Christ's followers who lives before they die. Who wouldn't?

There is a song that I listen to daily... "I Will Go" by Starfield. It pushes me to get up and figure out what God's plan is for me, when all I want to do is feel sorry for myself. Hope you enjoy it.

With Love,

Tay